As it is

just woke time. time's like 1.52pm. i'm feeling sad.

last night i slept at 6.30. why? cos once again i was confused. after sun night's phone call when he told me everything was a lie, i thought i was stronger. until last nite when he called and said he misses me.

yeah sure i put up a front. but inside i was crying, longing for things to be back as they were. mind's telling me no. he'll do it again. heart was crying.

so since that call i've been confused. in a sad way. argh!!!! try to forget try to forget.!!!! but im sad!!! wondering if i should call!!! i know i shouldnt....

i'm so vulnerable right now.... fuck....